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|| Tuesday, October 03, 2006 ||HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEAR HEARTACHE
I arranged for my family and Jojo's family to gather together for lunch yesterday, as an advance celebration of my birthday... since i'm going to Davao later today and leaving them all... for work.
My MIL brought cake and they lit a candle for it... Py's eyes lit up upon seeing the candle. If anyone reading this has been reading it since the beginning, then they'd know how Py loves blowing out candles on cakes.
He had this shy KILIG expression as everybody sang "Happy Birthday", and my husband actually positioned the cake in front of him... and everyone singing were singing to him... and it took all the willpower I had not to cry (esply with my brother beside me, and being scared to upset Py)... but I really felt sooooo sad that moment because really, it is the first anniversary of Py's illness.
A year ago today, his pediatrician proved very ineffective and incompetent.
A year ago today, my then fiancee and I had to rush to Metropolitan Hospital after having dinner with his family...
A year ago today, I cried with my brother and sister for the first time... hot tears of uncertainty filled with our worst fears fell from our eyes... the first of many desperate, lonely nights...
A year ago today, Pyro tasted his first confinement... the first of almost monthly treatments he'd have to face.
A year ago today, we started learning about how random and impersonal things can be.
A year ago today, cancer came into our lives.
We'd still give everything we can just to have Pyro declared cancer-free. Our hearts still go out to him, worry for him, beat strongly for him...
And our hearts have never stopped dreaming... of years of a normal childhood for him... of trips and games and school and a future family life...
And if there's anything that has truly been constant... it is Pyro's spirit. He is just truly a cheerful, wonderful, intelligent, loving, lovable child.
And he inspires us.
Everything we do for him cannot compare to the richness he brings into our lives.
Aned yes, for him, we cannot help but believe in a God.
Like what i've posted before... chemo has led him to lose his hair again. He casually told his Yaya that IT SEEMS GOD DOESN'T WANT HIM TO HAVE HAIR.
Happy birthday, dear heartache... happy because the heartache hasn't killed anything really important in our lives yet... not Pyro, not our faith, nor the hope that burns eternal in our hearts...
But please, no more... let Pyro be healthy again...
He was so LAMBING yesterday... and we know he had so much fun! Check the other pics out here
And for all those of you who have taken this journey with us... those we cried to, those who lent money, those who gave money and toys and inspiring books, those who are rallying to make Pyro's wish come true (meeting Batista)... Py's Ate Bebe helped him make this card to thank you all...
Because our family is truly grateful... and you've made Pyro all the more blessed